Life. Music. Love

what an experience

2010-12-29T03:59:00.000+08:00

the last night day in singapore. thought of buying souvenirs as planned. had lunch with auntie leeyen n hui hui, went orchard road to visit pui san jie jie , should reach home at 3-4 but then i try to get something from forever 21 and cotton on, walk walk walk walk without wearing a watch, without noticing the time. we shopped till 4something n reached home at 6 !! OMG

sorry aunty leeyen, she was angry of cuz. i felt so bad, n paiseh for giving trouble to her.

she packed my luggage, cook the dinner, n fetch me to the hotel whr i m going to get on the bus.

it's touching.

thanks for the great hospitality, treat me like daughter. giv me pocket money to spend ....tat's so much .

aww, i miss the life thr. aunty leeyen's cooking , gang gang, hui hui, faster internet speed, convenient public transport system.

when i got on the bus. bout 10 mins?

OMG, i didnt bring my passport so i quickly called aunty leeyen, ask her to send my passport.

tat service gal( should i call her a stewart? ) wasnt tat kind.

she ask me to take the 9 pm bus. wtf. i might reach at 2 am then.

ask my aunt to send the passport to the hotel.

Luckily, thr's one malay singaporean, borrowed me his phone to make a call.

cuz he lives in bt batok too, he thinks aunty leeyen could

So far, we are so close

2010-09-07T01:20:00.000+08:00

Haven't seen you for a month.

Haven't been talking to you for more than a month..

I wonder why we can only chat in person, face to face only. Not in any other electronic devices.

You are such a talkative guy that approach everyone for sharing your experience.

You always share your things with me.

I remember how long we chat for.

We used to chat a lot...so close, yet so far

Did music together..........

I felt like we are special friend. Not to say close friend, not good friend either,

still keep a distance from each other...is this a bond?

I don;'t know why we became a little strange now...

I found it !!

2010-09-07T00:04:00.000+08:00

Graphic design :)
I wanna learn more, find something which I could really do. Yay.
Will start studying in October :D
I am not going to let anyone knows 1st.:P

Singapore

2010-09-06T23:47:00.000+08:00

I suddenly realized I love traveling.

Bintulu and Sentosa, traveling just make people relax.

I always wanna see more things.

The world is big....

Well, I'd starting packing for tomorrow :)

Although Singapore is a small country and it's just next to Malaysia, but everything is better than us.

The education system,the traffic etc.....lol

small yet beautiful one. I hope I could get a DSLR asap. Can't wait to capture more !

Aim for this tirp:

1) watch performance in Yong Siew Toh Conservatory of Music

2) watch Singapore National Chinese Orchestra

3) shopping, try to get boots, leggings, BAGS

4) walk around and take pix

WEE

Movie

2010-08-30T01:53:00.000+08:00

Movie is part of life. It's like having lesson while watching movie.

Often, I felt like I was the character and I actually have nice experience in this.

Shi Yeong and Heu Lee asked me for sing K, with Wei Lynn.

Old acquaintance gathering .....I longed for outing..but I don't feel like singing anymore.

Not in K box LOL

I 've used to do whatever things alone, I guess.

It's much better. Much enjoyable.

All that I wanna do tomorrow is watching AVATAR SPECIAL EDITION in 3D !! OMG

but I just cant ffk..... >.<

Saturday night

2010-08-22T00:44:00.005+08:00

LeeHom's album is here !

This is the 2nd album I bought.

The real house key

Bow

Thanks Cally, I can have discount for the album^^

We haven't met for so long, so surprise to meet Woon Khey there.

Cally and I

Woon Khey and I

Cally and Woon Khey

Doraemon and his sister

People 's is now opened!

Still remember the day when it was still having its renovation,

LOL

the 7 of used the cool background for photo.

I watch LOVE IN DISGUISE!!

OMG, damn nice and meaningful.

I know how hard is a star's life,

over-whelmed ; no privacy.

This is so much like part of my life.

Classical musicians have always been criticizing POP star about their quality of music.

I realized how real singing works because I m taking vocal lesson.

In conclusion, using the diaphragm to sing is the best way,

只是共鸣在不一样的位置而已

Some nice quote from the movie,

知音不等于爱情

Soulmate is not love

Soulmate is a special bond.

One week ago

2010-08-19T23:25:00.002+08:00

One week ago, I m heading to JB for the wonderful trip
really miss that a lot!
I miss evryone!
I miss master, teachers and frens.
They going back to the states tomoro !

Too late for everything

2010-08-18T00:50:00.002+08:00

Again, I am stuck.
Stuck here?
I realized Singapore is a really great place.
There's a good conservatory....20mins away from auntie Leeyen's place.
Why can't I be there?

I always die to go to the States.
That's place is just free!
Too great for everything.
Music, views, education, cultures, techs,
I gotta save very very hard to achieve that.

Think of pursuing a Degree In Music, I just hav no money.
Think of going to NUS, I just haven't achieve the standard. :(
Think if going to the States, this is a far dream...

Everything is just in the dream.

Wonderful trip !!!

2010-08-17T00:45:00.018+08:00

The bliss out in the sea

We had so much fun together, the worst part is I forgot to bring my memory card, I brought a camera without the memory card!!> DAMN

Met quite some new friends, especially the 9 Americans. LOL

They aren't white people but their ancestry was from China and borned in the States.

Alison, Patricia, Patrina, Kasey, Linda, John, Skylar, Lucas.

6 were from California, they're cousin; while the other 2 from Portland, Oregon.

Lucas is Susana's brother.

All are young but look mature.

All are cute too, love the way they talk, love their accent, like typical American.

The 1st day we spent in JB, Danga Bay.

We got ride on the cruise, the sun was good. Windy on the sea.

Then, City Square for shopping, shopping bored me :P

The 2nd part, went for cycling.

2 ppl in a car,it's like driving.

My sister and I kept crashing on people,

they look scared, LOL

Jie Yang EPIC pic

Jie Yang, Khai Yang, John, Skylar

The gals and I

Back here

2010-08-17T00:44:00.000+08:00

I am blogging again. I finally got a nice template :P

19 officially

2009-03-22T20:28:00.002+08:00

haha
i m 19 dy
truly 19
ppl say 18 岁ｐｏｋｐｏｋ脆
i "漏风" la

i didnt expect this day...
no one wana celebrate wit me also ok
simple n ordinary is nice for me
but wat makes me feel sad is
i havent got my driving license!!!!
2 years ago i can own it legally!!!
i m now 19!!!haiz

i really wana thanks my old frens n buddy
yoon kit, boon huai,sok fun, puimoon,sasa ,Miss pyen
i chat wit yk on monday
n i said we haven't met for 4 months
he say let's hav a tea!!
n make it on fri
fri 's my bday
i don expect him to remember
it's happy enough cuz i can meet them

the day came
yk fetch me at saxon

and he keeps wonder
should we go n fetch BOON HUAI
or she go by herself?
i said "let me make a call 1st"

oh...no ans

then

i can feel tat he wana fetch her vry
it's actually the 1st time yk fetch us

v just drove to BH 's house
hoping she havent left

haha
when v reach her house
she call me n ask "whr r u guys?"

"v r in front of ur house"

"huh!? so fast...okok, i come out now"

then v chat on the way to the cafe.

huai ask

shuen,ur birthday is near wor,
when is it huh?

" today"

"huh!!? sorysory , i forget dy! why facebook nvr show ur birthday??"

yk: "mayshuen, i remember today is ur big day, i nvr forgot"

haha
2 cute frens!!
meeting n b together wit u guys r the happiest thg!!

then v reach the cafe
n order somthg
"can i hav a kimchi noodles n a strawbrry shake"?
i ordered.
when the meal come...
can u imagine?

huai:'' mayshuen< why do u order a instant noodles?
why eat instant noodles on ur bday?

hahahaahahaha
i also don know...
they use instant korean noodles ma
yk 's cellphone ring for 2-3 times
bh says ur mom always call de?
yk: ya lor

i stil not happy cuz sok fun says she isnt coming,...
suddenly...
happy birthday to u (4) wit a cake
oh no!!
a surprise!!
thanks !! i m touch,,,,...
i nvr had this bday!!

college

2009-03-22T15:52:00.003+08:00

haha!!
let's chat bout college first..
last last tuesday(10th march)
the 2nd sem exam 's result was released on this day
evryone was so eager n unpatient to know it..
but i
was just"relax"
not wating to know...
cuz i can image it..
i don hope it wil affect my mood for the whole day..

i didnt join my gang for lunch.
i went to CITC to print some fav scores.
i helped sasa to check her result.
this time she failed 2 sub
n when i back to class..
i noticed many ppl failed for theories n sociology.
time passed slowly...a boring day..
n then the last lesson was a lecture, i met sasa
v sit together..
n she told me tat she decided to stop the course...
i just laugh..\

she said" i m seriously, i m sick of this life, i wana stop"
ok
i got an answer too...
i nvr think tat is really my last day college..
no one knows...
it's a tiring day again.
n it's raining
pa fetch me n sasa fr lrt station to night market.
i m stil not deicided to quit study..

on the way home
"shuen, i don think my mom wil allowed"
said sasa
i replied
" u wil b ok"
contact later.

then
went home,
the 1st thg i don wanst checking my result
but listen to music,.
but
i really hav to check .
now or future.
then
wat do u guess？
i failed 4 sub this time!!
it's unjbelieavable!!
but i m not sad at all!! compare to 1st sem.
i don think too much
just sleep!!

the next day...
i sleep at my desire. without depending on the alarm.
n had a rest all day..
my heart 's stil little guilty
felt like "ponteng"
but
evrythg is decided, it had an answer.
so
i went saxon.

when i on my laptop
my frens start asking me,
"y nvr come for school today?"
days later,
" u sick dy"?

thanks evryone for ur caring.
i m just fustrated n sick of it.

i actullay did struggle for few night
as i cant sleep at night frequently..
i thought of..
if i put effort , wil i get better result?
not really。。。
if i stop, wat m i gonna do?
and many more...
but
i tell myself
i cant b in tarc, diploma in social science anymore..

knowing wat u gonna do is more important..
if i continue my course...
i hav to go to UTAR　
wat can i guarantee even i got a degree?
if i wana b a counsellor i hav to get a postgraduate degree..
without anymore doubt i stop college

so i wil concentrate in music.
i hav been slow down for 2 years
i wana pick it up
i wil teach small group of primary tuition
using creative method..
not letting the students feel stress
but make them enjoy studying..
this is wat i gonna learn n work on
i wil learn more language such as japanes
n strengthen my english

i enjoy my life now

what is love? (passionate love)

2009-03-02T15:44:00.005+08:00

recently
i always think of this question...
tat surround in my mind..
n so i ask other ppl
bout how do they perceipt love?
wat is love to them?

vanessa yau:
"love is the ajinomoto of life"
tat makes our our life more fulfilled n colorful"

sim yee ng:
"a vry deep feeling to some2 or something
tat u willing to do anything to hav d thing or let d thing u luv happy or as wat d thing like lor
thn will sacrifics to d thing u love lor"

james tan:
"for me it's nth la"

for me...
i wil describe it as a need
i could need it vry much
somehow..
i don need it

here's how Maslow define

Personality test..

2009-02-26T00:00:00.002+08:00

Xiao wen posted her personality test..
so i just tried on...
although i take Psychology Assesment ...
which i learnt to classify thee test validity..
but i stil wana try on it..
here 's my result

How do i view myself?

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

to do list

2009-02-22T01:27:00.000+08:00

here's sumthg tat i wana do..

1) buy a W595 cellphone
2) get a driving license
3) buy a new violin
4) travel to somewhere
(singapore 2009, taiwan when i graduate DIPLOMA)
5) keep fit..i ve always been fat...
6) b hardworking in study...

let's see
the 1st 4 need MONEY...
when i look at this list..
i hav thgs to worry again...

wat to do next??!!

2009-02-22T01:21:00.000+08:00

i ve been thinking this question since the 1st day of exam...
am i really like to study?
should i continue?
n until now...
my mind cant stop thinking of this...

during the 1st sem
i edi failed 2 subjjects..
so
i wont hope to failed again
but
when exam comes
i m just the same
i don even do rviosion one day b4 the exam
i think i m like wat chinese like to say:"no medicine can cure"

since i m so lazy to study..
why i go to college for?
for faces?
cuz my mom?
i also don know

last time during high school
i think tat i don like those account principles n commerce thg
n i 'l ok if i study the thgs i like
but now..
i m worse..

haaiizzzz

2009-02-22T01:00:00.000+08:00

it's been almost a "decade" since the last post..
haha
i m so lazy
n evry time when i hav sumthg to share
my laptop isnt wit me

this feb i m busying wit earning extra money
n of cuz
i wont let go the chance of having fun

i m really a foolish person
i cant go to genting wit my frens actually
no one wil stop me from doing tat
but don know why
i jus suddenly feel like don wana go
haizz
so sorry
i felt like i bu she de hua qian
stupid !!

so this month
i spend almost my evryday in saxon
10 30 pm reach thr to prepare tea break for children
then 1 pm cook lunch for teen station
haha
u must think tat this is an "aunty job"
but
hey, it's not simple
the food musnt b tasting bad..
u know children nowadays eat nice food currently
but
of cuz not me a lone cooking
stil got vanessa
then afternoon we teach tuition lo
it's happy cuz

we can gain money n experience at the same time

心乱如麻

2009-01-05T20:40:00.000+08:00

i m actually vry worry bout my final exam..
i failed 2 subjects last sem( don look down on me ya):-D
but i m thinking of:
this month only four days for exam
and other days i 'l just stay at home n become a pig..
so i struggled..
if i take the task for the kindergarten..
it might affect saxon...n my exam
but
at least i went for today
..
it is located at sri kembangan
today was the 1st day of school
and so they carried out orientation
and i handle the 6 years old class..
overall is stil ok
no one cries.
cuz they r trained..

so ,
for this month...
i'll busy with cafe( creating new menu)
busy with exam
busy with Chinese New Year
n try to suit myself to the kindergarten...

exam coming...time packed

2009-01-05T20:05:00.000+08:00

continue wit the last post...
i eventually met my former best fren(shi yeong)
not saying tat v r not best fren now
but compare to last time, when v r in form 2
we r not tat close now..

v chat in msn
n i asked
when wil she hav singing competition?
and she says she joining!!
oh..!! i m surprised
n so i watched her competition
and wit this
we get connected

n v also chat bout current n future events
after all
she wants to come to my music school!!
it's a happy thing to me!!
i can see my fren more often!
and last saturday
she came to register n enroll for classes!

Sunday,
i went to fotang to help the general cleaning
so i spent my whole sunday thr
n at night
i got a call from sister wen yun
she says her fren which is a headnistress of a kindergarten
needs a teacher for ergen..
n so
i take this task...

Lazy

2009-01-04T17:24:00.001+08:00

no post for almost 3 weeks
when i got somthg to write..
i m not wit my laptop, n not at home..
when i m wit them
i got nothg to write...

thgs had happened in 3 weeks
Christmas...
New Year..
Gathering...(more than 3 gathering u know!>)

ok
let's describe christmas first..
well
i m not a christian
so my family don celebrate x'mas
since i was born
but this year..
i got quite a special christmas..
it's in Saxon, my music school
Vanessa n i were the cook for this party..
look at the cake..i bake it wit love..

For gathering
one is with hann n chyng
on 29th Dec 2008\
wat makes this day so special?
cuz this is the 1st anniversary for knowing each other from National Service
nothg special actually
all v did is just chat..
n eat
n think a lot of crazy plan
but at last
i let go their aeroplane...

2nd gathering
30th dec 2008
this day?
haha
it's actually a gathering wit my lovely sister-hanshen
he eventually came from terengganu...term break
so 11 of us meet up
it's so hard to get this chance...

~to b continue~

Finally..

2009-01-04T17:20:00.001+08:00

It's 2009!!
many ppl wil wish each othet Happy New Year!!
But wish is just wish
v r not God
thgs r not control in our hand.

Count down events had been carried out..
but bad thgs happened...
In Thailand( if not mistaken)
thr's an incident n caused an accident finally...
a pub explode suddenly
...
In Malaysia, Bukit Bintang
fighting case..
is this a really Happy New Year?

A place where i belong ~~

2008-12-18T11:45:00.000+08:00

i don go to school on wednesday
i went to my music school, saxon conservatoire
this is a place tat i love to go vry much
except home...
this is the place whr i belong.

we practised some songs for x'mas
and chat ...
today hav not much customer
but i enjoy cooking,,
carbonara, tomato sauce..

nothg special for today..

pic 1
the cake beside is made by a parent
n the word by our teacchersasa n i , eating ice cream
listening to cheng mun
teacher david

pic 2
sasa n yinhang help to wash the dishes
pic 3
sasa n i eating ice cream

pic 4
teacher david
pic 5
listening to cheng mun

Peace

2008-12-17T01:59:00.000+08:00

the wether is nice these few days...
i can stil remember the past 3 weeks...
the rain pours evry evening when evryone are about to go home

so, wat happend at last!!
we caught in the rain!!
it's late for home!!
after waiting for 1/2 hour,my frens and i decided to walk to the bus stop...to seek for transport
we're wet n tired
but i recalled wat i hav experience during 2ndary school...
it was so nice.

and these happen and last for 3 weeks...
like a drama series...
i feel like having RAIN PHObia
whenever it rains
i feel a strange anxiety...
mood bcome down....

yesterday i went shopping wit seong..
i m actually feel stress to hang out wit her..
she's so pretty, sexy ..like a model..

we went to a shop tat sells jeans
the stuff was so rude!!
she was like not welcome wit my presence...
but forget bout it..
the glad thg is
i bought shirts n skirts tat suit me..

class actuLLY starts at 8am today
but don know wat happen to my alarm
i didnt bells!!
when i awake, it's edi 7.30!!
it 's too late!!
so i just continue to sleep..
haha

after prepared,
ii went to school for the next class..social psychology
teacher talk bout theories of sexuality...
it's related to one's culture...
woman hav less sexual desire than man...
sex contra wit lov for woman]: woman cant hav sex wit a man tat she doesn't love...

it's quite an interesting tutorial.
and then i went to library for some revisoin of text..
i suddenly got a call frm my x classmate..
miss them so much!!
they asked to hav a tea!!
so glad to meet them
they say they miss my sense of humour which makes them laugh evrytime
but i think
do i really is tat funny?
on the way home
while waiting for the train to arrive
the wind blows...
it's so comfortable n nice...
feeling good

today is really a special day
i meet many old or former frens...
chee kit, miao, woon khey( drink tea at school)
mei yin ( night market)
cindy ( met her in bus--cant really recognise her!!)
jiayu, yuean yee and sook bing
choon siam
i called mei yin to the NIGHT MARKET..
luckily she free to accompany me..
i bought a nice slipper and shoe...
we chat a lot bout our past

i try to upload some photos to share

Finally started!!

2008-12-15T22:55:00.000+08:00

haha
finally i start my 1st blog in Blogger..
i really don know what to share at first..
but then suddenly...
i hav the idea...

the beauty of writing blog are..
u wont lost wat u hav record for ur daily events...
n somtime v might find it annoying to keep such many of paper and words
so , starting a blog is a bright choice!!

I always surf ebay lately
searching a nice and reasonable price VIOLIN

I m glad at 1st cuz i found an old antique violin from german over hundred years ago..
the price was only 15USD
and after listen to its tone!!
it was amazing!!
althought i did think of it might be the pro skill of the owner..
but it's nice!!
im so exticing..
but few days later..
it rise to 25o USD !!it was yesterday
i checked it today..
335 USD..
sad n hopeless...

i m getting fatter...
hard to find shirt and pants tat make me looks good
but today i went to times square wit seong...my dear fren..
hahhahaahahahah
i bought 4 items..
2pants, one long and one short..

1skirt and one jacket..

these few days ...
i m more obvious wit my purpose of life...
sometimes i might wander..
why i go to school for?
i choose this course by myself,
but why m i still feel like lazy to study..
like ppl forcing me to study?

how this prob solve?
i attend my fotang佛堂 talk...it's like a lesson,
it's about is being a vegetarian wil hav good health?
the lecturer shows many nutritional facts...
n suddenly i miss the time when i hav science in 2ndary school...
i hav a please mind suddenly...
i told myself i hav to work hard now...
and later...what i've learn nnow...wil b vry useful...

i always say gambateh to myself..
but
does it really work?
struggl3_R
a nickname tat i use the most...n the longest term..
since 2005..
why i choose this?
struggle means strving n trying vry hard to achieve something...
it can b a negative word..
but for me,
it means nvr give up!!
we face many obstacles in our life..
sometimes v feel like wana giv up.
so i choose this..
to remind myself tat i hav to b tough n patient..
but
in fact...
im a totally opposite wit it..

i met a fren in somewhr in the web
wat i remember is,
he mentioned he is looking for business partner..
and left his email add.
so i just added him in my messenger list
and he told me wat his business is about!!