19 officially

haha
i m 19 dy
truly 19
ppl say 18 岁ｐｏｋｐｏｋ脆
i "漏风" la

i didnt expect this day...
no one wana celebrate wit me also ok
simple n ordinary is nice for me
but wat makes me feel sad is
i havent got my driving license!!!!
2 years ago i can own it legally!!!
i m now 19!!!haiz

i really wana thanks my old frens n buddy
yoon kit, boon huai,sok fun, puimoon,sasa ,Miss pyen
i chat wit yk on monday
n i said we haven't met for 4 months
he say let's hav a tea!!
n make it on fri
fri 's my bday
i don expect him to remember
it's happy enough cuz i can meet them

the day came
yk fetch me at saxon

and he keeps wonder
should we go n fetch BOON HUAI
or she go by herself?
i said "let me make a call 1st"

oh...no ans

then

i can feel tat he wana fetch her vry
it's actually the 1st time yk fetch us

v just drove to BH 's house
hoping she havent left

haha
when v reach her house
she call me n ask "whr r u guys?"

"v r in front of ur house"

"huh!? so fast...okok, i come out now"

then v chat on the way to the cafe.

huai ask

shuen,ur birthday is near wor,
when is it huh?

" today"

"huh!!? sorysory , i forget dy! why facebook nvr show ur birthday??"

yk: "mayshuen, i remember today is ur big day, i nvr forgot"

haha
2 cute frens!!
meeting n b together wit u guys r the happiest thg!!

then v reach the cafe
n order somthg
"can i hav a kimchi noodles n a strawbrry shake"?
i ordered.
when the meal come...
can u imagine?

huai:'' mayshuen< why do u order a instant noodles?
why eat instant noodles on ur bday?

hahahaahahaha
i also don know...
they use instant korean noodles ma
yk 's cellphone ring for 2-3 times
bh says ur mom always call de?
yk: ya lor

i stil not happy cuz sok fun says she isnt coming,...
suddenly...
happy birthday to u (4) wit a cake
oh no!!
a surprise!!
thanks !! i m touch,,,,...
i nvr had this bday!!

college

haha!!
let's chat bout college first..
last last tuesday(10th march)
the 2nd sem exam 's result was released on this day
evryone was so eager n unpatient to know it..
but i
was just"relax"
not wating to know...
cuz i can image it..
i don hope it wil affect my mood for the whole day..

i didnt join my gang for lunch.
i went to CITC to print some fav scores.
i helped sasa to check her result.
this time she failed 2 sub
n when i back to class..
i noticed many ppl failed for theories n sociology.
time passed slowly...a boring day..
n then the last lesson was a lecture, i met sasa
v sit together..
n she told me tat she decided to stop the course...
i just laugh..\

she said" i m seriously, i m sick of this life, i wana stop"
ok
i got an answer too...
i nvr think tat is really my last day college..
no one knows...
it's a tiring day again.
n it's raining
pa fetch me n sasa fr lrt station to night market.
i m stil not deicided to quit study..

on the way home
"shuen, i don think my mom wil allowed"
said sasa
i replied
" u wil b ok"
contact later.

then
went home,
the 1st thg i don wanst checking my result
but listen to music,.
but
i really hav to check .
now or future.
then
wat do u guess？
i failed 4 sub this time!!
it's unjbelieavable!!
but i m not sad at all!! compare to 1st sem.
i don think too much
just sleep!!

the next day...
i sleep at my desire. without depending on the alarm.
n had a rest all day..
my heart 's stil little guilty
felt like "ponteng"
but
evrythg is decided, it had an answer.
so
i went saxon.

when i on my laptop
my frens start asking me,
"y nvr come for school today?"
days later,
" u sick dy"?

thanks evryone for ur caring.
i m just fustrated n sick of it.

i actullay did struggle for few night
as i cant sleep at night frequently..
i thought of..
if i put effort , wil i get better result?
not really。。。
if i stop, wat m i gonna do?
and many more...
but
i tell myself
i cant b in tarc, diploma in social science anymore..

knowing wat u gonna do is more important..
if i continue my course...
i hav to go to UTAR　
wat can i guarantee even i got a degree?
if i wana b a counsellor i hav to get a postgraduate degree..
without anymore doubt i stop college

so i wil concentrate in music.
i hav been slow down for 2 years
i wana pick it up
i wil teach small group of primary tuition
using creative method..
not letting the students feel stress
but make them enjoy studying..
this is wat i gonna learn n work on
i wil learn more language such as japanes
n strengthen my english

i enjoy my life now

what is love? (passionate love)

recently
i always think of this question...
tat surround in my mind..
n so i ask other ppl
bout how do they perceipt love?
wat is love to them?

vanessa yau:
"love is the ajinomoto of life"
tat makes our our life more fulfilled n colorful"

sim yee ng:
"a vry deep feeling to some2 or something
tat u willing to do anything to hav d thing or let d thing u luv happy or as wat d thing like lor
thn will sacrifics to d thing u love lor"

james tan:
"for me it's nth la"

for me...
i wil describe it as a need
i could need it vry much
somehow..
i don need it

here's how Maslow define