college

haha!!
let's chat bout college first..
last last tuesday(10th march)
the 2nd sem exam 's result was released on this day
evryone was so eager n unpatient to know it..
but i
was just"relax"
not wating to know...
cuz i can image it..
i don hope it wil affect my mood for the whole day..

i didnt join my gang for lunch.
i went to CITC to print some fav scores.
i helped sasa to check her result.
this time she failed 2 sub
n when i back to class..
i noticed many ppl failed for theories n sociology.
time passed slowly...a boring day..
n then the last lesson was a lecture, i met sasa
v sit together..
n she told me tat she decided to stop the course...
i just laugh..\

she said" i m seriously, i m sick of this life, i wana stop"
ok
i got an answer too...
i nvr think tat is really my last day college..
no one knows...
it's a tiring day again.
n it's raining
pa fetch me n sasa fr lrt station to night market.
i m stil not deicided to quit study..

on the way home
"shuen, i don think my mom wil allowed"
said sasa
i replied
" u wil b ok"
contact later.

then
went home,
the 1st thg i don wanst checking my result
but listen to music,.
but
i really hav to check .
now or future.
then
wat do u guess？
i failed 4 sub this time!!
it's unjbelieavable!!
but i m not sad at all!! compare to 1st sem.
i don think too much
just sleep!!

the next day...
i sleep at my desire. without depending on the alarm.
n had a rest all day..
my heart 's stil little guilty
felt like "ponteng"
but
evrythg is decided, it had an answer.
so
i went saxon.

when i on my laptop
my frens start asking me,
"y nvr come for school today?"
days later,
" u sick dy"?

thanks evryone for ur caring.
i m just fustrated n sick of it.

i actullay did struggle for few night
as i cant sleep at night frequently..
i thought of..
if i put effort , wil i get better result?
not really。。。
if i stop, wat m i gonna do?
and many more...
but
i tell myself
i cant b in tarc, diploma in social science anymore..

knowing wat u gonna do is more important..
if i continue my course...
i hav to go to UTAR　
wat can i guarantee even i got a degree?
if i wana b a counsellor i hav to get a postgraduate degree..
without anymore doubt i stop college

so i wil concentrate in music.
i hav been slow down for 2 years
i wana pick it up
i wil teach small group of primary tuition
using creative method..
not letting the students feel stress
but make them enjoy studying..
this is wat i gonna learn n work on
i wil learn more language such as japanes
n strengthen my english

i enjoy my life now