19 officially

haha
i m 19 dy
truly 19
ppl say 18 岁ｐｏｋｐｏｋ脆
i "漏风" la

i didnt expect this day...
no one wana celebrate wit me also ok
simple n ordinary is nice for me
but wat makes me feel sad is
i havent got my driving license!!!!
2 years ago i can own it legally!!!
i m now 19!!!haiz

i really wana thanks my old frens n buddy
yoon kit, boon huai,sok fun, puimoon,sasa ,Miss pyen
i chat wit yk on monday
n i said we haven't met for 4 months
he say let's hav a tea!!
n make it on fri
fri 's my bday
i don expect him to remember
it's happy enough cuz i can meet them

the day came
yk fetch me at saxon

and he keeps wonder
should we go n fetch BOON HUAI
or she go by herself?
i said "let me make a call 1st"

oh...no ans

then

i can feel tat he wana fetch her vry
it's actually the 1st time yk fetch us

v just drove to BH 's house
hoping she havent left

haha
when v reach her house
she call me n ask "whr r u guys?"

"v r in front of ur house"

"huh!? so fast...okok, i come out now"

then v chat on the way to the cafe.

huai ask

shuen,ur birthday is near wor,
when is it huh?

" today"

"huh!!? sorysory , i forget dy! why facebook nvr show ur birthday??"

yk: "mayshuen, i remember today is ur big day, i nvr forgot"

haha
2 cute frens!!
meeting n b together wit u guys r the happiest thg!!

then v reach the cafe
n order somthg
"can i hav a kimchi noodles n a strawbrry shake"?
i ordered.
when the meal come...
can u imagine?

huai:'' mayshuen< why do u order a instant noodles?
why eat instant noodles on ur bday?

hahahaahahaha
i also don know...
they use instant korean noodles ma
yk 's cellphone ring for 2-3 times
bh says ur mom always call de?
yk: ya lor

i stil not happy cuz sok fun says she isnt coming,...
suddenly...
happy birthday to u (4) wit a cake
oh no!!
a surprise!!
thanks !! i m touch,,,,...
i nvr had this bday!!

college

haha!!
let's chat bout college first..
last last tuesday(10th march)
the 2nd sem exam 's result was released on this day
evryone was so eager n unpatient to know it..
but i
was just"relax"
not wating to know...
cuz i can image it..
i don hope it wil affect my mood for the whole day..

i didnt join my gang for lunch.
i went to CITC to print some fav scores.
i helped sasa to check her result.
this time she failed 2 sub
n when i back to class..
i noticed many ppl failed for theories n sociology.
time passed slowly...a boring day..
n then the last lesson was a lecture, i met sasa
v sit together..
n she told me tat she decided to stop the course...
i just laugh..\

she said" i m seriously, i m sick of this life, i wana stop"
ok
i got an answer too...
i nvr think tat is really my last day college..
no one knows...
it's a tiring day again.
n it's raining
pa fetch me n sasa fr lrt station to night market.
i m stil not deicided to quit study..

on the way home
"shuen, i don think my mom wil allowed"
said sasa
i replied
" u wil b ok"
contact later.

then
went home,
the 1st thg i don wanst checking my result
but listen to music,.
but
i really hav to check .
now or future.
then
wat do u guess？
i failed 4 sub this time!!
it's unjbelieavable!!
but i m not sad at all!! compare to 1st sem.
i don think too much
just sleep!!

the next day...
i sleep at my desire. without depending on the alarm.
n had a rest all day..
my heart 's stil little guilty
felt like "ponteng"
but
evrythg is decided, it had an answer.
so
i went saxon.

when i on my laptop
my frens start asking me,
"y nvr come for school today?"
days later,
" u sick dy"?

thanks evryone for ur caring.
i m just fustrated n sick of it.

i actullay did struggle for few night
as i cant sleep at night frequently..
i thought of..
if i put effort , wil i get better result?
not really。。。
if i stop, wat m i gonna do?
and many more...
but
i tell myself
i cant b in tarc, diploma in social science anymore..

knowing wat u gonna do is more important..
if i continue my course...
i hav to go to UTAR　
wat can i guarantee even i got a degree?
if i wana b a counsellor i hav to get a postgraduate degree..
without anymore doubt i stop college

so i wil concentrate in music.
i hav been slow down for 2 years
i wana pick it up
i wil teach small group of primary tuition
using creative method..
not letting the students feel stress
but make them enjoy studying..
this is wat i gonna learn n work on
i wil learn more language such as japanes
n strengthen my english

i enjoy my life now

what is love? (passionate love)

recently
i always think of this question...
tat surround in my mind..
n so i ask other ppl
bout how do they perceipt love?
wat is love to them?

vanessa yau:
"love is the ajinomoto of life"
tat makes our our life more fulfilled n colorful"

sim yee ng:
"a vry deep feeling to some2 or something
tat u willing to do anything to hav d thing or let d thing u luv happy or as wat d thing like lor
thn will sacrifics to d thing u love lor"

james tan:
"for me it's nth la"

for me...
i wil describe it as a need
i could need it vry much
somehow..
i don need it

here's how Maslow define

Personality test..

Xiao wen posted her personality test..
so i just tried on...
although i take Psychology Assesment ...
which i learnt to classify thee test validity..
but i stil wana try on it..
here 's my result

How do i view myself?

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

to do list

here's sumthg tat i wana do..

1) buy a W595 cellphone
2) get a driving license
3) buy a new violin
4) travel to somewhere
(singapore 2009, taiwan when i graduate DIPLOMA)
5) keep fit..i ve always been fat...
6) b hardworking in study...

let's see
the 1st 4 need MONEY...
when i look at this list..
i hav thgs to worry again...

wat to do next??!!

i ve been thinking this question since the 1st day of exam...
am i really like to study?
should i continue?
n until now...
my mind cant stop thinking of this...

during the 1st sem
i edi failed 2 subjjects..
so
i wont hope to failed again
but
when exam comes
i m just the same
i don even do rviosion one day b4 the exam
i think i m like wat chinese like to say:"no medicine can cure"

since i m so lazy to study..
why i go to college for?
for faces?
cuz my mom?
i also don know

last time during high school
i think tat i don like those account principles n commerce thg
n i 'l ok if i study the thgs i like
but now..
i m worse..

haaiizzzz

it's been almost a "decade" since the last post..
haha
i m so lazy
n evry time when i hav sumthg to share
my laptop isnt wit me

this feb i m busying wit earning extra money
n of cuz
i wont let go the chance of having fun

i m really a foolish person
i cant go to genting wit my frens actually
no one wil stop me from doing tat
but don know why
i jus suddenly feel like don wana go
haizz
so sorry
i felt like i bu she de hua qian
stupid !!

so this month
i spend almost my evryday in saxon
10 30 pm reach thr to prepare tea break for children
then 1 pm cook lunch for teen station
haha
u must think tat this is an "aunty job"
but
hey, it's not simple
the food musnt b tasting bad..
u know children nowadays eat nice food currently
but
of cuz not me a lone cooking
stil got vanessa
then afternoon we teach tuition lo
it's happy cuz

we can gain money n experience at the same time

心乱如麻

i m actually vry worry bout my final exam..
i failed 2 subjects last sem( don look down on me ya):-D
but i m thinking of:
this month only four days for exam
and other days i 'l just stay at home n become a pig..
so i struggled..
if i take the task for the kindergarten..
it might affect saxon...n my exam
but
at least i went for today
..
it is located at sri kembangan
today was the 1st day of school
and so they carried out orientation
and i handle the 6 years old class..
overall is stil ok
no one cries.
cuz they r trained..

so ,
for this month...
i'll busy with cafe( creating new menu)
busy with exam
busy with Chinese New Year
n try to suit myself to the kindergarten...

exam coming...time packed

continue wit the last post...
i eventually met my former best fren(shi yeong)
not saying tat v r not best fren now
but compare to last time, when v r in form 2
we r not tat close now..

v chat in msn
n i asked
when wil she hav singing competition?
and she says she joining!!
oh..!! i m surprised
n so i watched her competition
and wit this
we get connected

n v also chat bout current n future events
after all
she wants to come to my music school!!
it's a happy thing to me!!
i can see my fren more often!
and last saturday
she came to register n enroll for classes!

Sunday,
i went to fotang to help the general cleaning
so i spent my whole sunday thr
n at night
i got a call from sister wen yun
she says her fren which is a headnistress of a kindergarten
needs a teacher for ergen..
n so
i take this task...

Lazy

no post for almost 3 weeks
when i got somthg to write..
i m not wit my laptop, n not at home..
when i m wit them
i got nothg to write...

thgs had happened in 3 weeks
Christmas...
New Year..
Gathering...(more than 3 gathering u know!>)

ok
let's describe christmas first..
well
i m not a christian
so my family don celebrate x'mas
since i was born
but this year..
i got quite a special christmas..
it's in Saxon, my music school
Vanessa n i were the cook for this party..
look at the cake..i bake it wit love..

For gathering
one is with hann n chyng
on 29th Dec 2008\
wat makes this day so special?
cuz this is the 1st anniversary for knowing each other from National Service
nothg special actually
all v did is just chat..
n eat
n think a lot of crazy plan
but at last
i let go their aeroplane...

2nd gathering
30th dec 2008
this day?
haha
it's actually a gathering wit my lovely sister-hanshen
he eventually came from terengganu...term break
so 11 of us meet up
it's so hard to get this chance...

~to b continue~

Finally..

It's 2009!!
many ppl wil wish each othet Happy New Year!!
But wish is just wish
v r not God
thgs r not control in our hand.

Count down events had been carried out..
but bad thgs happened...
In Thailand( if not mistaken)
thr's an incident n caused an accident finally...
a pub explode suddenly
...
In Malaysia, Bukit Bintang
fighting case..
is this a really Happy New Year?