Too late for everything

Again, I am stuck.
Stuck here?
I realized Singapore is a really great place.
There's a good conservatory....20mins away from auntie Leeyen's place.
Why can't I be there?

I always die to go to the States.
That's place is just free!
Too great for everything.
Music, views, education, cultures, techs,
I gotta save very very hard to achieve that.

Think of pursuing a Degree In Music, I just hav no money.
Think of going to NUS, I just haven't achieve the standard. :(
Think if going to the States, this is a far dream...

Everything is just in the dream.

Wonderful trip !!!

The bliss out in the sea

We had so much fun together, the worst part is I forgot to bring my memory card, I brought a camera without the memory card!!> DAMN

Met quite some new friends, especially the 9 Americans. LOL

They aren't white people but their ancestry was from China and borned in the States.

Alison, Patricia, Patrina, Kasey, Linda, John, Skylar, Lucas.

6 were from California, they're cousin; while the other 2 from Portland, Oregon.

Lucas is Susana's brother.

All are young but look mature.

All are cute too, love the way they talk, love their accent, like typical American.

The 1st day we spent in JB, Danga Bay.

We got ride on the cruise, the sun was good. Windy on the sea.

Then, City Square for shopping, shopping bored me :P

The 2nd part, went for cycling.

2 ppl in a car,it's like driving.

My sister and I kept crashing on people,

they look scared, LOL

Jie Yang EPIC pic

Jie Yang, Khai Yang, John, Skylar

The gals and I

Back here

I am blogging again. I finally got a nice template :P

19 officially

haha
i m 19 dy
truly 19
ppl say 18 岁ｐｏｋｐｏｋ脆
i "漏风" la

i didnt expect this day...
no one wana celebrate wit me also ok
simple n ordinary is nice for me
but wat makes me feel sad is
i havent got my driving license!!!!
2 years ago i can own it legally!!!
i m now 19!!!haiz

i really wana thanks my old frens n buddy
yoon kit, boon huai,sok fun, puimoon,sasa ,Miss pyen
i chat wit yk on monday
n i said we haven't met for 4 months
he say let's hav a tea!!
n make it on fri
fri 's my bday
i don expect him to remember
it's happy enough cuz i can meet them

the day came
yk fetch me at saxon

and he keeps wonder
should we go n fetch BOON HUAI
or she go by herself?
i said "let me make a call 1st"

oh...no ans

then

i can feel tat he wana fetch her vry
it's actually the 1st time yk fetch us

v just drove to BH 's house
hoping she havent left

haha
when v reach her house
she call me n ask "whr r u guys?"

"v r in front of ur house"

"huh!? so fast...okok, i come out now"

then v chat on the way to the cafe.

huai ask

shuen,ur birthday is near wor,
when is it huh?

" today"

"huh!!? sorysory , i forget dy! why facebook nvr show ur birthday??"

yk: "mayshuen, i remember today is ur big day, i nvr forgot"

haha
2 cute frens!!
meeting n b together wit u guys r the happiest thg!!

then v reach the cafe
n order somthg
"can i hav a kimchi noodles n a strawbrry shake"?
i ordered.
when the meal come...
can u imagine?

huai:'' mayshuen< why do u order a instant noodles?
why eat instant noodles on ur bday?

hahahaahahaha
i also don know...
they use instant korean noodles ma
yk 's cellphone ring for 2-3 times
bh says ur mom always call de?
yk: ya lor

i stil not happy cuz sok fun says she isnt coming,...
suddenly...
happy birthday to u (4) wit a cake
oh no!!
a surprise!!
thanks !! i m touch,,,,...
i nvr had this bday!!

college

haha!!
let's chat bout college first..
last last tuesday(10th march)
the 2nd sem exam 's result was released on this day
evryone was so eager n unpatient to know it..
but i
was just"relax"
not wating to know...
cuz i can image it..
i don hope it wil affect my mood for the whole day..

i didnt join my gang for lunch.
i went to CITC to print some fav scores.
i helped sasa to check her result.
this time she failed 2 sub
n when i back to class..
i noticed many ppl failed for theories n sociology.
time passed slowly...a boring day..
n then the last lesson was a lecture, i met sasa
v sit together..
n she told me tat she decided to stop the course...
i just laugh..\

she said" i m seriously, i m sick of this life, i wana stop"
ok
i got an answer too...
i nvr think tat is really my last day college..
no one knows...
it's a tiring day again.
n it's raining
pa fetch me n sasa fr lrt station to night market.
i m stil not deicided to quit study..

on the way home
"shuen, i don think my mom wil allowed"
said sasa
i replied
" u wil b ok"
contact later.

then
went home,
the 1st thg i don wanst checking my result
but listen to music,.
but
i really hav to check .
now or future.
then
wat do u guess？
i failed 4 sub this time!!
it's unjbelieavable!!
but i m not sad at all!! compare to 1st sem.
i don think too much
just sleep!!

the next day...
i sleep at my desire. without depending on the alarm.
n had a rest all day..
my heart 's stil little guilty
felt like "ponteng"
but
evrythg is decided, it had an answer.
so
i went saxon.

when i on my laptop
my frens start asking me,
"y nvr come for school today?"
days later,
" u sick dy"?

thanks evryone for ur caring.
i m just fustrated n sick of it.

i actullay did struggle for few night
as i cant sleep at night frequently..
i thought of..
if i put effort , wil i get better result?
not really。。。
if i stop, wat m i gonna do?
and many more...
but
i tell myself
i cant b in tarc, diploma in social science anymore..

knowing wat u gonna do is more important..
if i continue my course...
i hav to go to UTAR　
wat can i guarantee even i got a degree?
if i wana b a counsellor i hav to get a postgraduate degree..
without anymore doubt i stop college

so i wil concentrate in music.
i hav been slow down for 2 years
i wana pick it up
i wil teach small group of primary tuition
using creative method..
not letting the students feel stress
but make them enjoy studying..
this is wat i gonna learn n work on
i wil learn more language such as japanes
n strengthen my english

i enjoy my life now

what is love? (passionate love)

recently
i always think of this question...
tat surround in my mind..
n so i ask other ppl
bout how do they perceipt love?
wat is love to them?

vanessa yau:
"love is the ajinomoto of life"
tat makes our our life more fulfilled n colorful"

sim yee ng:
"a vry deep feeling to some2 or something
tat u willing to do anything to hav d thing or let d thing u luv happy or as wat d thing like lor
thn will sacrifics to d thing u love lor"

james tan:
"for me it's nth la"

for me...
i wil describe it as a need
i could need it vry much
somehow..
i don need it

here's how Maslow define

Personality test..

Xiao wen posted her personality test..
so i just tried on...
although i take Psychology Assesment ...
which i learnt to classify thee test validity..
but i stil wana try on it..
here 's my result

How do i view myself?

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.